Migraine Strength

Migraine Strength

The first time I awoke with my cheek in a puddle of drool after passing out because the pain was so severe.

The night I pulled myself across the wood floor on my stomach — not crawling because the jarring movement intensified the already excruciating pain — to get to the Midrin in the other room, resting every few feet to gather the gumption to continue.

Having the ER nurse wake me to ask my pain level only to have me fall asleep before I could answer because I was so full of morphine and Thorazine that I couldn’t stay awake. When I did finally manage to answer, I was pleased that the pain was down to a 5.

Although I don’t exactly cherish these memories, I never want to forget them. That may seem strange — you’d think I’d want to erase thoughts of such horrendous pain as soon as possible. I hold on to them to so I will always be grateful for my days of less pain and appreciate the tremendous fortitude it took for me to persevere. The further I get from those days, the harder it is to believe I made it through. And the greater my wonderment at my own strength.

If you’re still in a place of despair and disability due to migraine, please believe that you are enormously brave for hanging in there. You are not weak because you are sick, but are instead stronger and more courageous than you can possibly imagine. Keep waking up each day and continue to try new treatments. You will eventually find relief.

I send much love to every migraineur, chronic or not. This illness can be ravaging. But it can also be empowering. We are strong, not because we push through when we are ill, pretend to feel better than we do, or take the pain without complaining, but because we persevere.

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  • scasi
    5 years ago

    “The night I pulled myself across the wood floor on my stomach — not crawling because the jarring movement intensified the already excruciating pain — to get to the Midrin in the other room, resting every few feet to gather the gumption to continue.”

    That was a perfect description. This IS my life too! I have been there too many times to count. Thank you for writing this post. I am also living through chronic migraines and it is always a nice surprise to read something like this! It is a beautiful reminder that we are not all alone. May you continue to be strong and lift others up. All the best!

  • Niso
    5 years ago

    It’s nice article.. I don’t know if others feel same but for me I keep fighting every day.. waking up and move on with my day acting as I’m fine at the end somedays I wake up with no power for acting over again.
    It’s not weakness but I feel tired and all ask ia little sympathy. . I spend mydays in trying and I need on that day of depression or I can call it down feelings is little understanding from around to push me up.. life is give and take.. do I ask much.. I try to sustain with oothes so why they don’t do same.. I know they are trying too but I feel it os not enough dor lack of knowledge that what I’m going through is not just headache. . It’s migraine people and stop treating it aa youe normal headache.. it’s rotaly different!! Hard ro explain for them that!!
    It’s not only oue strength to keep on going but ww need it in return too.. not much to ask.. I feel mean saying this but non migrainures should understand how we are trying..

  • Bettyjlo
    5 years ago

    Kerrie, I’m in my 6th day of missing work (on my 2nd week after Botox). I was in tears while reading this article. “You are not weak because you are sick, but are instead stronger and more courageous than you can possibly imagine.” That phrase meant SO much to me today. It is exactly what I needed today. I’m out of sick leave, waiting for FMLA papers to arrive from the doctor, and worrying that my co-workers and the HR Dept would like me to give in and disappear. I was just thinking, wondering if I was a wimp for giving in again today. Thank you, thank you, thank you! “We” collectively have a tendency to give in to second-guessing ourselves and our decisions to miss yet another day of work or another event. Sometimes, as you well know, having someone that really understands, is just what we need.

  • Trent Stinson
    6 years ago

    Something we all must remind ourselves that we ARE strong and there has to be something better… just keep on keeping on.

    Thank you for the reminder that I will eventually find relief. 🙂

  • Michael
    6 years ago

    Your post is a God send today Kerrie. Thank you and may the Lord continue to lead you.

  • Kerrie Smyres moderator author
    6 years ago

    I’m glad it was helpful for you. Thanks for the kind words.

  • Janet
    6 years ago

    My husband walked in the room just now to see what I was up to. I read your article aloud to him but couldn’t finish without crying. I wish your articles could fall into the hands of those who know us and don’t suffer from migraine, chronic or not. It seems to me that I can forward articles til my fingers can’t move or my eyes can’t see….but I pray the world could know how we live. I did get a hug.

    Blessings
    Janet

  • Kerrie Smyres moderator author
    6 years ago

    Thanks for your kind words, Janet. I’m glad what I said resonated with you. And I’m glad you got your hug!

  • Janet
    6 years ago

    Kerrie ..

    You have once again me something to think about. This time you directed me right to my Bible..specifically James 1:2-5 all about perseverence. I, like many, used to think I was weak. But I know a wonderful pastor who told me I had courage to endure migraines. I never ever thought I was courageous. For the thousands of tears shed and days that maybe amount to years now that I feel robbed of, I trust that God has me on this journey for a reason and I am to persevere through the pain and hopefully become stronger for it. I used to think to myself when surrounded by friends and family …”you could never be sitting here right now pretending to listen or even partake in the conversation because I’m so fog headed in my thinking I’m not sure I’m actually present ..pain level a 7 and you could never pull this off….” Your article affirms a forgotten message of how much I have persevered through pain much as all these readers. Thank you for putting your words to “paper” and making me feel less obscure .

    Blessings
    Janet

  • Michael
    6 years ago

    I found myself drawing strength from the same scripture after reading Kerrie’s post Janet. Thank you for sharing.

  • Dawn Lloyd
    6 years ago

    More power to you Kerrie, for trying to stay positive.

  • Kerrie Smyres moderator author
    6 years ago

    Thanks, Dawn! It’s a little easier now that I’ve found some preventives that keep the pain, nausea, and fatigue from knocking me out on a daily basis. 🙂

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