My Worsening Migraine and Depression
I’ve suffered with migraine for about ten years, but have never really had any issues with depression. That’s what I used to think. When my migraine presented itself as episodic the depression was not so easy to detect. I was working a full-time job. It took up most of my time, and my family life and commitments used up the rest of my waking hours. I guess I was just so busy and into a routine that I didn’t notice the depression.Not aware I was depressedAt the time I had a low awareness of the ever-looming emptiness that is depression. I was getting quite accustomed to pushing myself alone and self-care was the last thing on my mind most days. I do remember feeling the fatigue and general tiredness that I experienced surrounding a migraine attack, but I never attributed it to depression. My daughter suffered from depression so I thought I knew what it was but I was wrong.The downward spiralAs my migraine disease worsened my attitude started changing as well. It had to. I knew I was going to have to fully recognize that my migraine condition was getting worse. I was on a downward spiral into chronic migraine. I was missing more days at work, and the days I was there were less productive. I was half sick most days in that I was either recovering from a migraine attack or rolling into another one. It was during these days I really felt the downward pull of depression settling into my being. It was more and more of a struggle to constantly rally myself not to mention my work team every day. I was focused on keeping going and just treating my migraines. I thought if they were under control the depression I was feeling would ebb.
Can you tell when a migraine attack is coming?