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I remember when……..

I remember when I was fun for other people.
I remember when I could flick my hair around and dance without a thought.
I remember when walking into a shopping centre didn’t fill me with dread.
I remember when I was an active parent, without the need for another adult to be with me – just in case.
I remember when I didn’t google the word ‘vertigo‘.
I remember when ‘vertigo’ was just a Hitchcock film.
I remember when a headache was just a paracetemol away from being nothing.
I remember a time when a headache was limited.
I remember who I was without vertigo induced migraine and I mourn her.
I remember a Tracy who found the hidden promises in every day.
I remember when guilt wasn’t all consuming as I watch my family grow without me.
I remember when the world didn’t spin.It’s so much prettier when still.
I remember when I worried about how I looked, or where I would be going on the weekend.
I remember the woman who married her husband and wonder where she has gone, and wonder whether he misses her?
I remember when next to my bed would be a book and not a collection of medications that I grab at, as the dizziness descends.
I remember when medication used to work for me.
I remember I am alive, but not fully living – every day.

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  • Katie M. Golden moderator
    4 years ago

    That was beautifully written. I feel like being creative helps us to feel a little more alive in the midst of the pain. Thank you for sharing.
    -Katie Moderator

  • Sheila K.
    4 years ago

    Thank you, Tracy S, for letting me know I may have a twin sister ! I live as you live and do the same memory dance. Bless you always.

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