I’m sure a lot of you experience this. I guess I just need to let it out. I have migraines. I was originally told it was due to arthritis in my neck, but I believe now that it probably was a rebound headache that got this diagnosed and then the arthritis is a contributing factor. Unfortunately, it’s not just the arthritis. Weather, food allergies, heat and other things will trigger them for me. I have a wonderful neurologist and we found 2 preventatives that have worked well for a few years. But over time tolerance has increased and I’ve been taking more to keep them away. To add to this, my stomach is not happy. I now have acid reflex/gastritis.
Recently I had a terrible flare-up with the acid reflux that lasted about a week. About 2 days into this, I got a migraine. I couldn’t take any medication without the most intense heartburn from my middle chest up to my ears. I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat and at times felt like I couldn’t breathe. It was terrible.
Since this flare-up, I haven’t been able to take my migraine meds without some type of stomach/heartburn pain; it’s been almost 2 months now. After it subsided, I started looking into natural remedies to help. I’ve taken Feverfew and magnesium caltrate and then I found some natural remedies to help the heartburn. I was so happy. It seemed to be working. After about 2 weeks, I started weaning myself off my meds. All was great. I had a few headaches, which I figured was normal, but after a month, all seemed very good, almost seemless. Then I hurt my neck and at the same time, the weather kicks up and my allergies are in full gear and of course, I get a migraine. I went to the chiropractor, which helped some but I’ve had a headache for about 3 days now. I’m trying to stick with the natural remedies, but last night I gave in. I took my meds because I needed sleep and I feel like I’ve cheated. But the migraine is back today, not terrible pain, but it’s there.
So, I’m at work, trying not to cry because it’s seems obvious to me that I’ll never get off the meds. The side effects aren’t as bad as some of the others I’ve taken, but I’ve gained weight and they make me tired, so my time awake is limited. And now I have the stomach issue.
I know it’s better than the alternative, but I’m simply depressed about it. I don’t want to accept it because I feel like I’m giving in. I very much hate this. I was hoping I could find the natural remedies that kept them back enough so I could lose weight and start having my life again. I used to be very active and now it’s all I can do to go to work, attempt to clean my home and a cook periodically. But in reality, I feel like it’s a struggle to wake up every day for work and I don’t have a lot of energy. I try to walk and do things to lose weight. I stopped gaining, but I’m not losing.
I don’t have a social life and I miss a lot of family events because people don’t understand. I’m tired of the looks when I try to explain this to people, so now, I just make up excuses.
I’m not in pain if I follow my regimen, but I’m tired of it. I realize some of you are thinking, that’s good and I shouldn’t complain and I’m sorry. I really am. I know some of you are in incredible pain every day. I know I’m lucky to have some relief. But I want my life back. I want to do things and be active and I feel like I’m just treading water. I was never really sick before this was diagnosed and I’ve read so much looking for relief. I guess somewhere inside me, I thought it was like a bad flu, that somehow, it would go away.
Thanks for listening.