I am 44 (45 in Nov) and have lived with migraines since I was about 11. At first they were just menstrual migraines, but around age 30 they started increasing in frequency. I was diagnosed with chronic migraines in 2007 and put on Topamax and Verapamil. it made things so much better – only approx 6-8 migraines per month! (sad that one would think of that as good LOL) fast forward to Feb 2012, I get a lovely kidney stone. I switched to a new neuro on the advice of a fellow migraineur this past April. The first thing she did was take me off of Topamax because they can cause kidney stones! I truly love her as my neuro, but now I am still in the process of finding the correct dose of Lamictal – currently up to 200mg twice a day along with my verapamil. I also use Relpax 40 mg (but can only get 6 per month due to insurance), Midrin and Fioricet. I was using Norco but I can’t sleep on it and it was making me itchy. Off of the Topamax and until I got up to 200mg of Lamictol I was having daily migraines, now I have about 2-3 per week – unless a storm front/heat/or humidity comes along.
So I wake up this morning with a nice migraine and as I lay in bed I couldn’t help but think “I wish I could just take my meds and lay here in my nice dark room and never go to work again.” Of course being a single mom, I have to work. In fact my finances are a mess because I have had to take off quite a few times and have not always been paid for them. I worked for my company as a temp beginning June 2012 and was just hired as permanent in April 2013, so I don’t have much sick time or vacation days yet. (none thru the temp agency) To top it off, I know my boss doesn’t like me missing work like I do. So that makes me go to work when I prob shouldn’t.
Sometimes I dream about giving it all up, taking my daughter and running away! There are very few people in my life that understand what I go through, my mom is def not one of them. Luckily my daughter is, she also gets migraines. I wish I could go somewhere where work is not a worry and I can enjoy my good days and not have to worry about missing things on bad days.
Is there anyone else that feels like this?