Hi…my name is chris and I have been living with this horrible disease for 5 years. It has continued to progress to one nonstop migraine with periods of no pain from many small headaches in these five years. I have tried all level 1 preventives and most of level 2. I am on Botox and it does some dampening, but not 100%. I have been at a constant state of headache for about 18 months (with some times obviously better than others.) I don’t know how much more fight I have in me. The only time (85-90%) o feel like myself anymore (>6 months) is in the pool. I train for swimming about 18 hours a week in the pool. But that’s it. I am always in pain, I have expectations at my job (and will more than likely be fired since I have only been here a few months and am not covered under FMLA.) When im not catching shit from my work, I have to work with my wife and daughter (20months) and as much as she tries to understand and emphasize, she can’t. I feel guilty that I have put this burden on her, but It wasn’t as if I did it on purpose. I would rather be a dead dad than a dad that is seen as weak or a pussy by his own daughter. I am only writing this cause, I hope someone out there is in a similar place and we can both walk each other off the ledge. Can I sure as shit don’t want to be up here, but I have no other options.