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No more concerts for me

So...(exasperated sigh) I did something extremely stupid last night. Please, by all means, feel free to laugh at me after you're done reading this. Because this truly is hilarious. I'm being sarcastic, of course. Anyone hear of Jeremy Camp? Christian singer? Well, I took the day off from work to attend his concert at Six Flags in Jackson, which is also where I work. My head was tolerable on the way there, but about 20 minutes after sitting down inside the stadium with my mom, the base drums were kicking my head in, and the pressure on the right side of my literally felt tangible. So, what did we did you ask? 20 minutes after sitting down, and after driving for 45, guess what. We left. Looking back, I can't believe I thought I could handle it. So ashamed. I love spending time with my mom, but I wish I didn't request off. I should have just worked. At least there would have been no music. But I am glad we left because who knows what the hell could have happened to me. Hearing my coworkers talk about me would have been the last thing I needed. I know they wouldn't, they're lovely. But it would have been incredibly humiliating. Right after I walked out of the stadium, I saw pink stars. When I got home, finally, I felt like I had distorted hearing, numb arms, and tingling fingers. Oh, and uh speaking of hell, when I was little, I used to be afraid of going to Hell because as a child who did not yet understand God's purpose for my cerebral palsy, I was not aware, at the time, that He loves me. Although I'm no longer afraid of that because of what Christ did for me, I realized today, that I have a totally different reason for not being afraid of Hell. Want to know why? It is because I'm already there. Oh, and did I mention I work at 8:30 this morning? Wooohooo!!!!

  1. Hi Kstout135,

    Thanks for your post. I am so sorry to hear that an attack was triggered while attending a concert with your mother. How frustrating! Sometimes we participate in events thinking we will be fine (hoping we will be) and realizing they are in actuality triggers for attacks. Try not to beat yourself up about it! We all have to learn someway! It sounds like leaving was the right decision, even though it was very difficult. I know the title of your post states "no more concerts for me", however if by any chance you happen to be interested in attending one again, check out this article - It provides tips for going to concerts and festivals. Maybe you will find something helpful! Wishing you all the best today!


    Meaghan ( Team)

    1. Aw thanks Meghan! This was helpful!

      1. Hi kstout135,
        I read your post & others you've posted, & wanted to say hello. I felt so bad for you with regard to your going to the concert with your Mom & then not being able to stay & enjoy it. I understand completely. My husband once got some FREE tickets to a country singer who we both really like, but we had to give them away, because I can never be counted on to be able to go, much less tolerate staying at the event.

        1. Hi Niaomistr18,

          Thank you so much for your response. It means a lot that people are interested in what I write

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