I Get Back Up
When we were kids, we had an inflatable clown that we'd punch and would immediately right itself. Down and up. Down and up. Down and up. Until the day it deflated and never came up again. If that clown had feelings, it would have felt like me, because I'm always going down and up.
November was the best month I've had in the last year. The daily average of my headache severity dipped below 4! I was feeling very up. But then came the punch and down I went. I've had 7 bad migraines in the last 14 days and I'm finding it hard to right myself. I'm tired. The pain seems to suck the energy and happy out of me, not just on the day it's happening, but for the next day too, especially when I've been taking painkillers. So when I have migraines 50% of the time and the other 50% I'm recuperating I find I'm deflated and so is my hope. I'm doing my best to remember what November felt like and to believe that a month like that will happen again, but it's hard. It's hard, but I know that I only feel deflated and that sometime soon I'll get back up.
Always loved the Tubthumping song: "I get knocked down, But I get up again, You're never gonna keep me down ...". Think I'll make it my personal theme song.
Wishing you all the strength you need to get back up when you've been knocked down.
Which are you most sensitive to?