What Life? Part II
Some of you may recall the weepy, desperate story that I posted in mid-January. I received dozens and dozens of compassionate, supportive responses, each one letting me know that I wasn't alone in this absurd quest to quiet my 15 year history with migraines. You might remember that I rattled off every attempted remedy, pinterest hack, triptyline, preventative rx, holistic approach, non western method, ice, heat, manipulation, massage, injections, prayers, crying, suicidal thoughts, careless narcotic usage because I just didn't care anymore. I've tried it all. Each year the pain got worse and worse, my tolerance to meds grew higher and higher. While my friends/family's patience with me dwindles.
What I failed to mention in my original post is that throughout all of this, my primary care physician continued to offer birth control pills as an option. I refused. The thought of adding "one more pill" to my outrageous regime of pharmaceuticals annoyed me. Not to mention what birth control pills would do to my moods and/or my body in my mid-40's. I have a history with depression and at times it can be pretty dark. I'm terrified to monkey with anything that could trigger a downward spiral. I can somewhat recall being a little cray when I was on oral contraceptives in my 20's. But then again, I wasn't on any antidepressants then, so it's hard to gauge.
That was two months ago. I've taken one Maxaalt since then. Maybe one or possibly 2 migraines (or just bad tension headaches) since then. Still frequent, if not daily headaches, but NOTHING like before. If my pain level was at a 7 for hmmmm, about 2 years straight, I'd say overall my average pain level has been at about a 4 for the past eight weeks. My quality of life is back and I am absolutely thrilled. I am so happy! I was at the dr this week for a upper respiratory bug that required some antibiotics. Dr asks how I'm feeling. I answered, "AWESOME!!!" Then, I realized I hadn't given that answer in years. Here I am, sick with a sore throat and I'm telling her that I feel 'awesome!' :) I really, really wish I would have given this a chance years ago. Never in a million years would I have guessed that hormones were the culprit. I'm so mad at myself. But so, so happy, never the less.
I never thought I would get to this place...this place where severe, chronic pain wasn't a constant presence in my life. I've had a reprieve from the pain and it's incredible. My mood is lighter, I'm happier, I'm more productive, I'm more clear headed, I'm not consumed with obtaining pain relief. I don't feel like I constantly need it! It's so freeing and liberating.
I just wanted to share this. As with my need to share my misery and pain a few months ago, I also felt compelled to share this encouraging story of relief as well. Maybe someone else will benefit from hormone therapy and will find relief as I did. I only wish I'd have tried it sooner.
All the best.
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