I May Be Living, But I Have No Life

I first began having migraines when I was 12 years old. After having a migraine nearly every day for a year they stopped. I didn’t have another one until I was a freshman in college. I was lucky to find a wonderful neurologist who helped me to keep them maintained through preventative medication and triptans for my episodic migraines.

I had my first intractable migraine at age 23. After over a month of solid migraine I was hospitalized for DHE treatment. That would be the first of seven hospitalizations for migraine.

My migraines started to snowball after that. They became more intense, more frequent and they lasted longer. I missed school and I missed work. My migraines became so frequent that I lost four jobs.

Three years ago I started seeing a headache specialist. He diagnosed me with chronic migraine. He threw everything but the kitchen sink at them. Some drugs worked, but caused too severe side effects that I had to stop taking them. Other drugs had no effect whatsoever. We finally settled on nerve block injections, which don’t get rid of the headaches, but do reduce the severity. I now go to the office every month to play my role of human pincushion.

My life revolves around my migraines. I miss vacations, and birthdays, and holidays. I’ve missed so many appointments that some doctors refuse to see me any more. I live for those moderate days when I can actually sit in the living room and watch tv, instead of lying in bed with my face mask and ice pack, praying for sleep. I still hold on to the hope that one day someone will discover something that will make the migraines go away.

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  • margaret
    6 years ago

    Hi Jennifer, I read your story and it brought me such sadness to hear of your suffering. You don’t need pity, you just need hope. After suffering with migraines myself for 13 years I am now doing what I can to get the word out there that there is hope. I too have tried all the different drugs, treatments, “miracle cures” and nothing could stop this freight train of a migraine from hitting me head on. Then at the end of March this year I discovered a clinic that has just changed my life! I wrote about it on this blog with the title “The article that changed my life”. I don’t get anything to promot the clinic other than the satisfaction of knowing that it could help one person with their migraines. Please look it up and maybe it is something you would consider…it’s call the Ontario Migraine Clinic. In my story I also gave a link to the article where I heard about it. Whatever you do in life for your migriaines I hope that it brings you some relief and you get your life back! Everyone deserves to live pain free. Good luck!

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