Would love to remove my head!

My migraines started after I was injured in an auto accident in 1966. Back then there was no such thing as “closed head injury.” My face hit the steel dashboard of a pickup truck which slide on ice in the winter. The surgeons and entire medical field were focused on saving an 11 year olds life and trying to figure out what her face was suppose to look like instead of a huge swollen basketball the color of eggplant.

I have a physical reason for my migraines, one’s brain is not meant to be tossed about in your skull like a baskeball. I was not diagnosed with migraines until I was in my mid 20’s. I just had these horrible headaches which made me unable to see due to spots like a flash bulb going off in my eyes, unable to have load noises and throwing up. When I got one that lasted for over a week, I finally was sent to a Neurologist who finally gave me the good new.

The CAT Scan also show bone fragments in the brain from the accident which help cause the headaches. My big triggers are weather, stress, smoke and change of my routine. I have a boss who doesn’t believe me when I have to take time off work to go to the doctor for a pain/nausea injection. I has questioned my sick time off and I have been placed on report. Just because someone doesn’t have a physical appearing illness some believe I am faking it. But people who “know” me, can take one look at me and they know right away that I am having a migraine. My right eye droops and my thought process is not good. I have a hard time putting words together and lose my train of thought.

I am 58 years old now and there have been times when I would love it if my husband would just remove my head the pain is so bad. I don’t like to take my pain meds unless it gets bad for a very days but at least then I can function somewhat. They take the edge off and the meds for the nasua helps keep fluids down. I have been in the hospital for 5 days with one of these and the IV pain meds were so strong to stop the pain, I have to know my name, the year, the president and everything else because I was being injected every 3 hours.

To say that Narcotics are bad I understand but when that can keep someone from this kind of pain, who is to judge. I would sign any contract, or anything else if I could have under lock and key in my safe at home the pain injection so I didn’t have to drive to the Doctor’s office, make my husband take time off his job too, just to get the relief I have to get.

As for the cost of the drugs and stress from my boss, it is also unbelieveable stress. So one feeds to other. And then depression, how can someone who gets this kind of pain not get depressed from time to time. As a preventive for the migraine I take Zoloft so that must help the depression at times.

It’s just that this is an ugly problem and I try to stay postive most of the time. I’ve live almost all my live with these and I have them more that 16 days a month, but as my one doctor told me, “If this is the only side effect of your closed head injury, I’m damn lucky.”

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  • juanitaschmidt
    6 years ago

    Like I’m told every day “just hang in there”. I say like you if only I could remove my head I know I would be ok. I felt like I was reading something I would have wrote only I fell at work and my head hit the floor face down so hard that it bounced. My co workers seen it happen and couldn’t believe it. Of course the ER dr. just stitched me up and ask my husband if my nose look broken. No x-rays, no CT scan, no pain meds no nothing. I filed a complaint but of course nothing was ever done. I have migraines on a daily basis. Most day I can manage but on bad days I can’t think or speak without terrible.Never had many headaches before this. It has been over a year and I have been in the hospital multiple times with side effects from preventive medicine. I will be 57 soon and I can’t imagine what it will be like to live out my life with headaches every single day. Hugs to all of you out there that are suffering and no one understands.

  • Jennifer Bunardzya
    6 years ago

    Hello….Your caption “I would love to remove my head!” caught my eye because I say that on a daily basis. I was diagnosed with migraines at age 12. The nausea, vomiting, flashing lights…..I call them “Hellaches”.
    About 4 years ago (at age 39) I was in a car accident in which I was ejected from the car, hit the pavement going 38MPH. I had a left 10 inch open skull fracture and an intracranial bleed in the frontal, right temple, and right parietial lobes of the brain in which I had an emergency craniotomy with partial skull removal.
    I cannot make plans, work, have depression, PTSD, TBI…..
    I completely agree with you on all aspects of your message. I do not take any narcotics…but there are many times in which its the same trip to the ER….ect…(you know the drill).
    Due to the increase in misusing/addiction still on the rise…..those “med-seekers” have really ruined it for those who legitimately need relief (at home).
    HUGS to you~~~~

  • Nancy Harris Bonk moderator
    6 years ago

    It’s great that you try to stay positive which is hard to do when you are in pain all the time. And I understand this quite well -my life changed 16 years ago when I fell and suffered a traumatic brain injury. From your description, it sounds like you may have had a TBI too. There is nothing mild about closed head injuries – any injury to the brain is serious. And you know what, you really don’t have to live with this “ugly problem.” Let’s see what we can do to help you out.

    The doctor who said “if this is the only side effect of your closed head injury, I’m darn lucky” does not realize the negative impact your pain is having on your life. Shame on him! That’s really a horrible thing to say to a patient. You pain is real and as valid as someone with their head cracked wide open. Here is a perfect example of migraine and headache stigma. I’m sorry you are going through this.

    So, what can we do to help our situations? The first thing is to get an accurate diagnosis, which sounds simple but can be a lengthy and tiring process. There are over 300 types of migraine and headache disorders out there and getting the correct one allows us to get the proper treatment and enable us to learn all we can about our condition. Post-traumatic headache, migraine with aura, migraine without aura, chronic migraine- you get the picture. Here is some information on how to go about this; http://migraine.com/blog/migraine-management-essential-diagnosis-and-doctors/.

    Sustaining a TBI can make migraine more severe and difficult to treat that’s why in my opinion it is imperative to see an expert in migraine and headache disorders, rather than a doctor who says they are a specialist. Migraine specialists are doctor who are board certified in headache medicine. Neurologists may be fine doctors but have a difficult time being experts in one area because they treat so many different conditions like MS, stroke, epilepsy and more. Migraine specialists are just that, experts who treat one condition all day, every day – migraine and headache disorders. Let me give you some information on how migraine specialists are different; http://migraine.com/blog/how-are-migraine-specialists-different/. And when you are ready to look for one you can read the information in this link;
    https://migraine.com/blog/looking-for-a-migraine-specialist/.

    Narcotics are now used as a last resort in migraine treatment one reason is because it’s important to stop the migraine not just cover up the pain. This link has information on why narcotics may not be appropriate for migraine use; http://migraine.com/blog/the-confusion-about-codeineopioids-and-migraine/.

    I don’t want to overload you with too much information, I get carried away sometimes :). We do have a discussion forum you may want to look into to for support, that link is here; http://migraine.com/forums/.

    Let me know what you think about all this information, OK? I didn’t even touch on the employer stuff yet…..

  • Adamsgran726
    6 years ago

    You should contact your company’s HR representative about applying for protection under the Family & Medical Leave Act. It will protect you from being fired because of frequent absences. You will also have a history of just how long migraines have had an impact on your life, in case you need to apply for disability in the future.

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