I’m a chronic migraine sufferer who is about to embark on a journey halfway across the world to teach English in Asia. Although I’ve had migraines since I was seven (abdominal, then with aura, then medication induced, then cluster) and have learned to cope with the pain, the added extras which I have been luckily dealt with are not so manageable. I’ve been forced to endure aphasia during exams (high school and university) but now it has kicked up a notch into full blown memory loss for an hour or sometimes more. I can’t even remember my own birthday or laptop password during these times and because of my frustration at this I have begun getting uncontrollable mood swings as if I were PMSing all the time and not even noticing it. I hate these times more than the days of agony and darkness. I have an extremely understanding and helpful boyfriend who plans on sticking it out with me forever, but I constantly find myself hurting him without realising what I am doing until the next day. I want to break this cycle of constantly feeling guilty for everything I do and say, but I don’t know how.I also have periods where he says I am perfectly functional (even on the phone to my parents) and then a few minutes later it is like I wake up and I don’t remember what happened or how I ended up where I was.
Is there anyone out there who has gone through this and come out the other side? How can I stop myself from being an amnesiac to ? Above all I need to know if it will be possible for me to hold down a job despite these attacks!
I could really use some advice….