I dont typically post on forums, social media, etc but I am so worn down. I’m 28 and the manager of a vet clinic. I’ve suffered from chronic migraines since 2012.
Anyway, I suffer from migraines weekly, sometimes every other day depending on weather, etc. For the last 6 days, I’ve been dealing with a monster migraine. It finally took me down last Thursday and I’ve been off work since.
Been taking LARGE doses of Benadryl, up to 150mg twice daily. Magnesium 1000mg, Inderal 40mg as preventative and Prozac 20mg daily for GAD & depression. Finally got my Neuro to fill a Medrol dose pack this morning.
I honestly attempted to goto work today but am suffering from such severe cognitive dysfunction and nausea, I cannot fathom getting behind the wheel of my truck, driving to work, and running an entire clinic. I’ve only been with my current employer for 9 months, and my boss is incredibly understanding but as an employer, I know he can only tolerate so much and I am petrified about losing my job.
I’ve talked to my boss and he said terminating me never came across his mind. Still, I am so nervous and scared. I am ashamed that my migraine has impacted my work, productivity, and coworkers to this point. I can grit & bear thru 95% of my migraines but this one has brought me to my knees.
I feel like the pain and wide range of symptoms has gone uncontrolled for so long, I cannot think straight and feel so alone. My fiance and his mum both think I should be able to grit thru and bear it. The only other time I’ve had a status migraine was last June and I was hospitalized for 4 days to get DHE infusions. I don’t have insurance but am considering inpatient infusions if the Medrol doesn’t help. There are so many worries and thoughts going thru my head. It’s even more frustrating that I can’t communicate them because of brain fog.
If I could let the whole world know one thing about migraines, it would be that migraines aren’t by choice. I just want this to end.