Migraines have changed my whole life & being

I am 43. I got my first migraine about 2.5 years ago. The first one lasted 6 weeks & I continued to get them regularly. After many medication trials I now am taking Deralin, Catapres, Physeptone & an anti-depressant for clinical depression/anxiety. I also take paracetamol or ibuprofen & sometimes have to have a morphine injection or Phenergan to knock me out.

I have been through a lot of stress for the past 7 years, losing my children's father to a brain tumor & many adverse affects this had on my boys' lives & behaviors as well as my own.
It was found during the 1st year of migraines that I was also pre-menopausal, now menopausal.
Generally I get a terrible visual aura sometimes one eye sometimes both, spots or lines or just blurriness. I generally vomit & my blood pressure drops drastically.

I have isolated myself due to both the migraines & the depression and have found myself presently very depressed & recently had suicidal thoughts. I have a partner/friend for 10 years and it is very hard for him to understand, along with the other issues. We don't live together and I am finding he is staying away more as he doesn't know how to deal with my migraines/depression and the whole package deal. My 2 teenage boys also find it hard. I often have to ask for help for transporting as they are heavily involved in sports and extra-curricular activities which I have somehow managed to keep going.

I had to give up work 2 years ago as the migraines were just too frequent. I am at my worst at the moment as far as my mental health goes and find I have isolated myself so much that people don't bother ringing anymore. Reading through stories on Migraine.com has made me realize I am not alone. I have put on weight & desperately want to set goals to get fit & healthy again. IN Australia at the moment it is extremely hot and I find the days of over 30 degrees unbearable. We area heading into 7 days of 35-45 degrees and I know to prepare and shop etc today. Kids are back to school in 2 days so that has to be done too.

It isn't until you experience a migraine that u realize that they are so so so much more than a headache. The screen is now an array of big black spots so I will come back another day :(

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