Life just happens...

I’m home after a long day. I’m physically and mentally exhausted, I’m exhausted in a way that sleep doesn’t help. Today my migraine is exhausting in a way that my soul is tired and lonely. When your soul is tired, there is no amount of sleep, medicine, family or friends that will help. When your soul is tried, this world just doesn’t seem right. Your spirits get down, then slowly the day is weighing on you, you want to curl up in a ball and hide. Hide from all the commotion from the day, hide from the pain, but every move is weakening. Making dinner, feeding the dogs, letting them out, doing laundry, dishes, doing the floors and of course being with family and friends. I don’t want to talk on the phone or text anymore, I feel as if I’m only burdening them. Truth is, I know I’m not, but I feel like a disappointment. I feel like life is just sputtering out of control. Fact is, I can’t do anything to stop it. I can’t change my outcome, I can’t change when and where my attack will happen. I can’t change how frequently it happens. I have to learn to prepare and adjust to my migraines. Life just happens, my life is only one day at a time, sometimes just one hour at a time. The only thing I can do is hope tomorrow is a better day.