Making the most of what's left

I have had 4 back surgeries and as I age, now 55, my back is degenerating and due to cervical disc issues. I now get 2-3 migraines a week on average. Most of the activities which I did I can no longer do: music, woodworking, hard exercising, roughhousing with grandson, going outside on sunny days, making commitments with the caveat, I may have a migraine.

Sex, when it happens is still good, but a migraine causer. So I have 2 activities left to me. Laying on back and listening to music or books on tape. Reading news from my phone on my back. I think the main thing for me is that I have no confidence on any given day what the state of my head will be or my back.

And finally, I no longer try to describe the pain cause it is indescribable. I just say, it hurts so bad in my head, it scares the shit out of me. The best way to deal with them I have found is to accept their impact on my life and realize that 2-3 days a week, I am absent from life.