Weird symptoms

I pulled into the parking lot at work one day, and my life fell apart. A weird dizziness and a pressure behind my left eye. I called in sick, (sitting in the parking lot!) and drove home like a drunken sailor. Managed to get into my apartment, the weird colors and wavy textures were fun :( as was the spinning. A nap and I was fine. It happened the next day and I hustled to the ER for a MRI. nothing. They said it was vertigo.

Well, vertigo goes away at some point. I was dizzy constantly. 3-5 days a week. no pain. no nausea. no lighting in front of my eyes. not a single migraine symptom that I could find on line. I was dizzy, but the room doesn't spin. It rolls. Its like my 'vertical hold' is off.

The neurologist said migraines: "people have migraines without any headaches all the time!" the unspoken message, 'I know more than you do, don't ask questions, don't waste my time'. During the next few months they loaded me up on so many medicines I could barely function, so of course I lost my job, the job I had worked at for 21 years.

Sometimes one pupil is larger than the other, sometimes I get that weird pressure before things start to roll, but not others. Not one single headache in 1 1/2 years. A second neurologist said, "well, maybe could be, but I don't know."

Its hard to live this way. I can't get a job because I can't drive a couple of days a week. I have no insurance because I have no job - no more migraine medicines for me! this has been hard on my family.

I count my self lucky that I don't have the debilitating headaches that everyone else does. They say sometimes migraines stop as you get older. I sure hope so.