Hi, I've just joined this group and for the first time ever and posting about my symptoms and telling people outside my immediate family what I experience. I haven't even consulted a doctor through fear of having my drivers license revoked or similar and I'm sure that's an overreaction but so much depends on it - the paranoia is real.
I remember in high school (over 20 years ago) having strange episodes where I'd suddenly get a sense of dejavu - I'd suddenly have thoughts totally unrelated to what I was doing - memories, characters phrases racing through my head that were familiar but in no way related to reality. There's also nothing I can do to stop them, they brute force interrupt whatever I'm doing for 5/10/15 seconds the clear off. I remember as a kid also being terrified to tell anyone and as much as they were confusing and unusual there was also something a little but enjoyable about them. Something a little bit trippy! The after High School they just disappeared and for maybe the best 10 years or more I didn't get any at all. It almost got to the point where I'd forgotten all about them. Then in my 30s they came back. And with varying regularity have started to interrupt my day to day. As an adult it goes something like this -
Anywhere between a few times a month to once a quarter I'll suddenly get the same feeling of "oh that's a familiar memory popping up, oh here we go...." and then suddenly I'm in it. I'm distracted, I start to sweat, feel disoriented, dizzy and often would prefer to be sat down or desperately needing a glass of water. Once it's over I can't really remember what I just" remembered". It's like a script just got acted out in my head of some little drama and then immediately exited stage left and erased the tape on itself. In the mean time I'm left feeling a bit dopey, sweaty, out of sorts but never to the point where anyone has really noticed (or if they have never to the point where they've said anything). For me it feels quite intense but obviously outwardly it's not that shocking! I then normally get a mild headache and feel quite numb in the head (heavy?) and wouldn't say I feel so keen to do anything more then sit and talk etc.
I'll then have the same thing happen anywhere from once a day to 4-5 times in a 24 hour period. During the night, the day, while driving, while walking. Indiscriminately.
As mentioned I've always worried it might be something more serious. I'm married with 2 kids and my wife doesn't drive. Losing my license would have unimaginable consequences. I've never not been able to function through them BUT I appreciate that some people might think my approach is foolish and careless. I guess coming on here is the first step to addressing it properly.
As for triggers - stress/anxiety most likely, linked to tiredness or poor diet potentially. But I've never been able to really put my finger on it.
I'm keen to hear if anyone's has the same or similar experiences and if they been diagnosed or found any effective ways to avoid them?!
Thanks in advance for any insights!