I feel like my migraines have turned me into a person I never wanted to be - sometimes they make me depressed/withdrawn, sometimes I cry and feel I'm having a nervous breakdown, other times I get extremely irritable and angry - literally everything bugs me and I even lash out and snap at people, get super impatient, curse, hit walls, etc. That's NOT the real me; the real me is meek, quiet, shy, and a nice person who cares about others and never wants to hurt anyone. But when the pain or even the postdrome get to me and my emotions go all over the place, I feel like it's beyond my control - especially when I've had many attacks or especially severe ones lately.
I hate being angry, bitter, sad, hopeless, etc. - all these horrible feelings that a migraine brings, but worse, I hate feeling that there's no way to stop it. I hate not feeling like I have control over my body or my emotions. No matter how I try to rationalize with myself and calm myself down, I feel helpless against it - even though I know I'm only making it worse and/or setting myself up for another attack. Does anyone else have this problem? Are there any solutions for stopping something that you feel totally powerless against no matter how hard you try to overcome it?