This is my fourth day out of work in the past two weeks. I have FMLA and because of the work that I do there aren't many accommodations that can be made for me. I am so frustrated and angry. I feel so guilty for missing work because at this point I'm am on leave without pay every time I call out. I have an amazing boyfriend who has been so supportive but today I feel awful about myself. I feel like I should be able to tough it out and push through but each migraine is so debilitating. I don't know how to change my train of thought, 8I don't know how to dig myself out of what I fear is a depression spiral. I am on preventative meds, I have tried some alternative therapies. I track my triggers and try so hard to find an answer or some relieve. I have been suffering with this for almost 2 years now. I used to be dependable, reliable, and hard working. When I don't have a migraine I can still be me, but more often than not I am completely wiped out by one. How do I change my entire lifestyle and personality to accept that this is how my life is now? I've been working so hard not to feel so defeated and to focus on what I can accomplish but it's so hard! Especially when none of my family or friends understand. I guess I really just needed to vent but any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated! I just feel like I may be in denial about accept life as it is now and I am so caught up in how it used to be prior to being diagnosed.