I am 33 and my boyfriend is 22. We have been together a year now and my health continues to deteriorate and it is taking a toll on our relationship. I feel so guilty. I think I should let him off the hook and potentially anyone else by just staying single. I love him so much, but he should be out and having fun with his girlfriend on cool trips, concerts and bars. I wish I could do these things myself even if I did not have a boyfriend. I am getting so depressed and I don't think I can live like this much longer. I am even afraid of my ability to keep a job. I do not know what to do.