I share the same worries. I'm in my 20's, and I'm scared that I won't be able to finish college or maintain a job. I have a severe condition on the MIDAS scale, I was diagnosed last year but I have been dealing with my condition since I was thirteen. Now, I am experiencing my migraines at some of their worst alongside mental health deterioration, heavy stress, and academic decline.
I think the worst part about my fear is that I know failure at "performing" in society is a very real possibility. Finishing school, getting a job, marrying someone, raising kids, and even being able to enjoy my hobbies are all things I can very easily visualize not happening for me. I am being medicated. I am in therapy. I have people around me who love me. Nobody except the people in these forums seems to understand that chronic pain can't go away from cheering someone up. I will be in pain no matter if I have emotional support from others. My life, our lives, are not going to get better from support. I genuinely think that the only chance I have at some semblance of normalcy in my life is getting disability checks and somehow marrying someone who will allow me to care for a family at home without needing to make a consistent income.
I know this doesn't sound inspiring, but I don't really intend for this message to be as such. I am trying to be real right now. Friends, family, and employers center discussions about this around how to fix it. Chronic pain can be managed, but in many cases, it cannot be eliminated. You matter. You are valuable. You are not failing at the life you want. That life was built for the most capable. Your life, just like mine, is going to be a constant struggle with our invisible disability. Dealing with the pain is one thing, but recovery time and fatigue are factors that take up most of our lives. I would say my heart goes out to you, but you already know that. We can take solace in the fact that we understand each other a little more than others.
Please, keep on going. The pain is worth the sun setting at night, the birthdays you will have, the tears you will cry, the foods you will enjoy-- Your interests, your joys, your comforts, and your lows are all feelings that come and go. It is corny and kind of annoying, but one of my favourite quotes is and has always been "This too shall pass". The pain is worth it. Life is worth it. I'm crying writing this, but I know that's a good thing. I feel seen and heard here, and I really, really hope that you feel the same.