Old
I’m feeling so old. I just turned 70 in May and I keep thinking about my mom at this age. She passed away a year ago at 101.5 years old. When she was 70, she was still so vital, so active, very energetic, volunteering for several groups, busy and happy. My father was still alive then (for another year) and they had some challenges together. He had some medical and psychiatric issues, but, I think mostly they were enjoying the sunshine where they moved to a few years before, after dad retired.
Aging and chronic migraine
I was obligated to retire on disability status because of my chronic migraines. It was either that or disciplinary actions were going to be started, because, even though I was a perfect employee in every other aspect, I’d used up all my sick days, and in a union environment, that was the only consequence available. I had been a RN for almost 40 years and never had ONE problem, EVER, in all that time, so I certainly wasn’t going to go out that way! That was in 2014.
Trying to live a normal life
These days, I’m doing everything I can to live a normal life. But, it’s not working. I’m not going to go into all the details here, all the meds and treatments I’ve tried. Some of them gave me false hope for a while. I’m also limited in what I can take, to some degree because I’m on 2 anticoagulants/blood thinners. I’ve had 9 blood clots. None now since 2016, which is good. I keep thinking that I’m done with those, too, then I get another.
Aging and migraine frustrations
Well, I’m still here, so, I’m grateful for that! I guess I just felt the need to “kvetch” or complain this morning. Okay, a pity party. I was just so frustrated because it’s the third day in a row that migraine has sidelined me and I can’t get anything DONE!! I feel so useless and OLD, or is it old and useless? Well, you get the idea. So, I thought I’d write about it here, where I know anyone who reads it is very likely going to understand what I’m talking about.
Thanks for reading this. I’m a bit better now. I think it helped, plus maybe the Norco is starting to take effect. I don't know. G-d bless you, especially if you have to deal with these things like I do. It’s no walk in the park, that’s for sure. 💕🙏💐
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