Migraine and depersonalization
I experienced my first migraine attack when I was in 4th grade. I remember not understanding what was happening to me. For a young child it was one of the most frightening things I had experienced. One second everything was fine and the next I couldn't see half of my friend's face. It was just a blank swirling blind spot.
Anyway long story short I'm now in 10th grade and I still experience them frequently. I joined this site because well, I was feeling awfully alone. About a year ago (maybe less) I started experiencing this weird feeling like I was in a video game and that nothing made sense. I didn't know what it was and it still scares me honestly. One of my friends has had mental issues for a long time now and her therapist diagnosed her with depersonalization disorder.
At first I was like wow that sounds scary. So, naturally, I looked it up. What caught my attention was that it seemed that it fit my symptoms! Though I never really told her because I didn't want to seem like one of those people that hear about other peoples diseases and then try to say the have the same thing for attention. What's even crazier is that another one of my friends was also diagnose with it! Now, this is a rare thing because usually 1 out of 3 people get it and well here we are with 3 out of 3. I still haven't really said anything because if I start to question them about it or even kind of mention the Symptoms I have they freak out!
But I was online today and I found this website. On one of the articles it was talking about mental diseases usually linked with migraines. So I looked up depersonalization with migraines and found tons of people who have experienced the same thing I have! It honestly helped a lot. I feel less alone. Sometimes I don't know what to do because I can't talk to my two best friends about what's going on in my life because I'm too scared with what their reaction might be. I'm considering getting a therapist but I'm not sure about it.
I'm just glad I found this site and can't wait to read other peoples stories and experiences! Living with migraines and what I'm pretty sure is depersonalization is hard. I miss so many days of school because I'm stuck in my room all day crying with the lights off and a ice pack on my head. My grades slip a lot and it takes all of my energy to get them back up before the end of the quarter. I'm barley scraping by and it sucks. In good on credits for now thank goodness. But it's hard because none of my teachers even try to understand. One of my teachers said "wow, these migraines must really bring you to your knees if you need to miss this much school" in a condescending tone. It definitely hit me hard because she's one of my favorite teachers too. Well, that's my story so far.
Which are you most sensitive to?