Still trying to get control.

I am 32 years old and have had migraines since I was 15. I have to admit that my memories of my migraines from that time are all pretty much the same. An image of me crying while laying on the bathroom floor in pain with my mother not knowing what to do.

I began my medication journey with Midrin and now I take a full array of prophylactic Meds then have the full kitchen sink of abortives. Most recently my Neuro gave me Botox, which has not helped. I have to say that I do think that I am lucky because the triptans usually work for me as abortive medication. My problem is that I am taking it way to much. My "go to" Meds are sumatriptan and phenergan, if needed.

I feel like my migraines have robbed me of many special occasions and I couldn't even speculate to the number of days with friends, family or even alone that I have missed out on. Piled medical bills had put me in debt. Many missed classes when in college and an inability to continue certain classes caused a change in my career path.

The past year has been difficult. I have always had a lot of migraines, but they have increased. I now have TMJ, which is new for me. I know I am taking too much medication, but what other option do I have? I don't want to loose my job and, the medication works. My Neuro has asked me if I wanted to be admitted several times, but I know how that is going to go... A few days in the hospital, doped up on DHE45, pain Meds and Ambien until discharge, then I go home and the migraine returns the next day. What's the point?

Regardless of what the migraines have taken away, I have built a great life. I have finally gotten rid of those ER bills and have established a good career that I am passionate about. I married a man that has had migraines, but luckily they are few and far in between. He is loving, supportive and is very good at getting me ice packs!