The thing that’s upsetting me most at the minute seems trivial & I totally realise that- but somehow I can handle all the crappyness that comes from migraines better than this, or maybe it’s just the final drop that makes my cup overflow
Part of my migraine is aphasia and muscle weakness down my left side – where I end up limping around – if I can walk at all, and my co/ordination and balance suffer greatly and also my control over my facial muscles is largely diminished – it feels like my face’s melting – it looks a lil droopy but not as bad as it feels
Because I get this quite often it doesn’t upset me overly anymore& I limp around as much as I can on my own -by sheer stubbornness more than anything else- and I’ve learned a few tricks to help with the aphasia (like slow deliberate speech with simple words etc) same as I’m sure others do – all because I want and need to get on with life as much as I can when the pain is manageable and aura has stopped
The upsetting part is people’s reactions – I have been accused of being rude and cross and miserable – from everyone from friends to shop assistants – I’m not cross or miserable I’m just physically incapable of making a smile on occasion or being as sociable n sweet as i’d normally be because I’m experiencing the many varied effects of a migraine
The most recent ‘character assault’ has just knocked the wind out of me & I’m so upset about it that now with this current migraine I feel like I need to hide away from everyone in case I’m misunderstood & accidentaly upset someone else or end up with everyone thinking poorly of me/ hating me – what do others do?
Sorry that was so long – I’m so used to saying I’m fine and it’s all fine that I guess it’s just all pouring out now, big love