Ive missed work again today. I know that my boss is trying to be supportive but Im hurting his business. The meds I was taking have stopped working. I have an appointment with my neurologist to start yet another new med. My mood is really low. Im irritavle and cant stop crying. Im trying to find the positive but I dont think I can today. I hate that something has so much control over my life. I try to ignore it and be cheery. I try to remind myself that Im conquering it. However, today... Today I feel defeated. A shell. Just a ball of painful nerve-endings.