I'm sorry, this is more of a complain post, but I dont know where else to write this without being criticized or told "just breathe" or whatever other solution they'll give me because they don't know what to say. I'd rather have someone on here read it and understand because you guys all understand.
It's at a level 4 right now, and me crying isn't helping it at all. But it's like, the one time that I'm starting to feel a little better, I become crippled with anxiety and depression, I'm so unhappy and i haven't stopped crying.
I feel so lost. I hope I can find a preventative that can actually work for me, I hope i can find a better medicine than treximet, I hope the magnesium infusions work, I hope that all of this is worth it, because all of it just seems so pointless when I've been in a 2 year cycle of migraines non-stop. it just wont go away.
And the more I cry the worse the pain gets but I just can't help it I'm so unhappy it's like I woke up fine and then it just all washed over me when I was starting to realize my head wasn't that bad today. But now it's just getting worse.
This is crap. And I hate it and I wish it would go away and I wish I could find the right treatment.
This just sucks so bad. The depression and the anxiety that comes along with migraines. It used to be depression, now it's turned to more anxiety than depression, but today its a mixture of both.
Today is just not a good day mentally. I don't know how I keep going. I really don't know.