Sort of break from migraine?
I'm sorry, this is more of a complain post, but I dont know where else to write this without being criticized or told "just breathe" or whatever other solution they'll give me because they don't know what to say. I'd rather have someone on here read it and understand because you guys all understand.
It's at a level 4 right now, and me crying isn't helping it at all. But it's like, the one time that I'm starting to feel a little better, I become crippled with anxiety and depression, I'm so unhappy and i haven't stopped crying.
I feel so lost. I hope I can find a preventative that can actually work for me, I hope i can find a better medicine than treximet, I hope the magnesium infusions work, I hope that all of this is worth it, because all of it just seems so pointless when I've been in a 2 year cycle of migraines non-stop. it just wont go away.
And the more I cry the worse the pain gets but I just can't help it I'm so unhappy it's like I woke up fine and then it just all washed over me when I was starting to realize my head wasn't that bad today. But now it's just getting worse.
This is crap. And I hate it and I wish it would go away and I wish I could find the right treatment.
This just sucks so bad. The depression and the anxiety that comes along with migraines. It used to be depression, now it's turned to more anxiety than depression, but today its a mixture of both.
Today is just not a good day mentally. I don't know how I keep going. I really don't know.
Hi SydneyL,
Welcome to the discussion forum and no worries about complaining - we all need to do that once in a while! Many of us have days like the one your experiencing, not sure how we will make it through, but the important this is we do!
Depression and anxiety can be comorbid conditions in addition to being symptoms of an attack. And being in continued pain can certainly make a person depressed, we do understand that. Let me see what information I can give you that may help; https://migraine.com/blog/depression-migraines-unpleasant-cousin/.
There is no doubt migraine is frustrating, exhausting and debilitating. We hate to say "there's no controlling migraines" as this implies we aren't able to do anything about them. However, there are steps we can take to reduce them. Trigger identification and management is one thing we can do to help. Here is information on triggers;
https://migraine.com/blog/migraine-management-essential-trigger-management/.We can also reduce our risk factors and make different lifestyle choices - keeping a regular sleep schedule, not skipping meals and so on. According to Dr. David Dodick, a top migraine expert, migraine risks factors include overuse of acute medications (opioids, barbiturates, analgesics and triptans) obesity, depression, smoking, being overweight, snoring, too much caffeine, and head trauma.
Do you by any chance know what any of your triggers are? Keeping a migraine diary is an easy way to track triggers and any patterns our attacks may have. Here is information on how to keep a migraine diary; https://migraine.com/blog/keeping-migraine-diary-basics/. And with all the apps out there it is easier than ever. Migraine.com has the Migraine Meter you may want to look into or a Google search may help too; https://migraine.com/migraine-meter/.
I'm wondering if you've ever worked with a doctor who is not just a board certified neurologist, but a doctor who is board certified in headache medicine? These doctors do exist and there is a big difference between a neurologist and these experts. Neurologists may be fine doctors but have a hard time being experts in one area because they treat so many different conditions like multiple sclerosis, Parkinson's, stroke, epilepsy and more. Doctors who are board certified in headache medicine treat one disorder - ours- migraine and headache. Let me share information on what makes these doctors so special; https://migraine.com/.../how-are-migraine-specialists.../ and how to find one; https://migraine.com/blog/looking-for-a-migraine-specialist/.
I'm going to stop now because I've given you a lot of information. Please let me know you are OK and if you have any questions.
NancyWell it's hard for me to see a doctor outside of Kaiser because my insurance is Kaiser only. I've tried 3 of their neurologists so far. They aren't helping. They also don't have headache specialists.
It's sad but we're not too great on money (my mom and I only, she's a widow, and actually she just lost her job too), so we only have Medi-Cal Kaiser. So I have to deal with what I am offered, and it isn't great treatment.
I have my triggers and I don't skip meals, it's just about finding the right treatment. And I really don't want to go on anti-depressants again, I was on those since I was 13 and I've been off them for 2 years now. They make me feel like a zombie. Plus i've tried those medications for migraines anyways, and they still make me feel like a zombie.I just hope that something ends up working because this is getting really exhausting for me. I can't work or go to school, so that's making me more depressed.
Have you tried Maxalt? Only thing I ever found touched mine.
If you suffer sick in the stomach you can get a maxalt met ( melt tab)
Melts under tongue. I can usually take it and function if I take it as soon as I know I'm getting one or wake up with one.
Also diet is very important. Eliminatetion diet if not known for possible
Triggers.Its MLT not met sorry
