I can’t do this anymore. Chronic migraine has worn me down, there isn’t anything left. My fiance says to keep my chin up, stay positive. I at 26, I lost my ability to have children and had a hysterectomy after years of chronic pelvic pain and now chronic migraine.
I can’t do it. Nothing helps my head and I have no insurance. Trokendi was my only savior but it’s so expensive, I can’t afford it. Propranolol only helps me limp thru my days. I’ve started drinking but the pain caused by the alcohol is so severe, I had to stop.
Smoking weed only helps so much and since money is so tight, I can’t just smoke weed all day, every hour to keep my pain in check. CBD oil helped but I required large amounts so again, too expensive.
I was fired from my previous job with insurance because of my migraines. At 28, I can very firmly and confidently say, this is enough. If I’m going to wake up every day with my head screaming at me, severe brain fog, the inability to effectively communicate with other human beings, what is the God damn point? I mean, seriously.
Life is not meant to be nothing but pain and agony. I know there is happiness and good health out in the universe but it wasn’t meant for me and if I can’t get the help I need, I’m not living my life like this anymore. My loved ones and myself don’t deserve to deal with the life shattering and altering condition that is chronic migraine.
I honestly do not care if I’m perceived as selfish or whatever. In my short time on this Earth, I’ve experienced more than most people and I am done.
Thank you for whom ever reads this. I don’t know what else to say except thank you and I hope you or anyone else you know was able to handle chronic migraine better than myself.