"In response to question, how am I feeling:
Not good. I have a migraine (surprise!), and just took Norco, as the Tylenol Arthritis Formula wasn’t touching it. The good news is that we, my husband & I were able to take our 2 dogs in the truck & drive up to one of the lovely lakes in our area, about 30 minutes away, & spend some time there, & got home, before this hit. I had several other things I planned on doing today, since we got home before lunchtime, but no, those activities are not happening today. 😖
I also am dealing with some kind of chest/back pain that’s been off & on for several months, & I don’t know what to make of it. I told my doctor about it & he thinks it’s epigastric in origin, & put me on Omeprezole (Prilosec.) I’ve been on it for about 5 days now & so far, I’m not noticing any change. It makes me a little bit anxious, since I have the weird clot history, but 🤷‍♀️ he knows that.
The other thing that happened recently was a HUGE fight between my husband & myself & I blame it all on the migraine/migraines. You see, I had a VERY BAD one the other day & responded to a question he asked me in a way that I probably wouldn’t have, if I didn’t have the migraine. In my own defense, it seemed like a baited question & not something to bring up when I was in that condition. But, had I been in my right mind, I would have been able to see that, but not rise to the bait. In any case, this resulted in a HUGE mess, where he was threatening divorce & all kinds of other horrible things, including giving away our 2 dogs, one of whom is like an unofficial therapy dog for me. We slept in separate rooms that night, & i cancelled going to a meeting for 3 days from then, because I don’t drive & he said he wasn’t going to help me anymore. The familiar theme of “I do so much for you & you don’t appreciate me” was repeated, as would be expected. But, he said he’d reached a point of no return & indicated that there was no point in trying anymore. I took him seriously. The next morning, he did want to talk. Apologized for saying that he didn’t want to continue with our marriage. I was actually surprised. So, even though i felt like I was being jerked around, & very tender emotionally, things have gradually gotten better. It looks like we’ve weathered this storm. I don’t know if other married couples go through this kind of thing. Or if this is more common among couples in which one of the partners suffers from chronic migraines. But, I will say this: This episode, & I think several others like them in the course of my marriage I believe to be at least partially related to my migraines. I’m simply not me when I have them. And, on that day, I’d had to take 3 1/2 tab doses of the Norco to even begin to get some relief. The fact that I’m taking that much of that medication to try to control it tells you a lot right there. And, something else. I don’t have a whole lot of self esteem to begin with. But, when he starts talking about giving our dogs away, specifically one of them, who I consider my unofficial therapy dog, I start thinking about hurting myself, should he do that. I need Yogi. We could divorce, but i need Yogi. That’s not negotiable. I’m not playing. I have many, many possibilities for achieving that objective, and I am completely serious. I don’t have a whole lot going for me, anyway. Really. If our marriage fails, & I don’t have Yogi, there’s no point to my life. Simply how I feel.
So, things are better now. I can only pray that they stay good for awhile.
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