I Am Still Here

My name is Susan. It has been way too long. A lot has happened since I was last here.

How my migraine started

First, my migraines stem from a water skiing accident when I was in my early 20s... When my first migraine hit, I thought I was having a stroke; then, my anxiety decided to join the party. Anyway, my doctor sent me to a doctor in Fonthill. He gave me one cortisone shot in three places on my neck and back. We did this for three weeks. I didn't encounter another attack until I turned 70.

Facing constant aura

I got hit with migraine with aura for one and a half years, 24/7. I had a hospital bed in my living room. I had no doctor to treat this for a while until Dr. S stepped in. Everything she gave me made me sick and was very costly. She provided me with amatrypoline, which got me out of bed. I am short, so when I finally got up, I had lost weight - I was 104 lbs.

Then, my doctor of 30 years left me high and dry. I had at least 7 doctors at that time. I was still getting migraines with aura. They now knew my name at the hospital. Time went on.

A new doctor and some answers

At least I was eating between cortisone shots for my knees and hips. I had anxiety, and I was getting angry. At that time, a new doctor came to town. I finally had a family doctor. They have a pain clinic doctor who started giving me beta blockers. It did not really help. As time passed, I eventually said, "Give me an MRI." We found out that because of the accident, my spine was in bad shape. I needed to have an operation. I was given 8 needles. I was given a local anesthetic, but not the one that puts you to sleep.

New questions to ask my doctor

OMG, I had no pain for almost three weeks; it felt so strange like I was missing something. Then, on the 17th of the month, I got a migraine, and on the 18th, I had a vertigo attack, and then it all stopped. I have an appointment with my doctor on the 25th, and I am unsure what will happen. I plan to ask if that's the same area that Michael Jackson overdosed on since I'm scared he might want to increase the dosage. My doctor said I'm on a blocker that does not let pain in. Sure, I have twinges here and there, but my question is, is this worth going over.

I must tell you how uplifting those two and a half weeks were. I hope all this makes some sense.

Where I'm at now

I have been alone when my best friend passed away in 2023. The nights are lonely, and to be honest, he had dementia, so I really did not have him present, but I had his presence. Does anyone understand? I am sending good vibes to everyone. I'm sorry if I'm all over the place; I'm just feeling very alone today. I am praying for you all.

Your friend Susan